Ugh!!!

So it is Saturday night and I am sitting at my dads house with nothing to do. I have no one to blame but myself. Tonight is Sadie Hawkins and I wanted to go but I was to shy to ask anyone to go with me and by the time I found out I had today off it was to late to ask anyway.

For some reason this month hasn't been so great, well actually the past few months haven't been so great. Why you ask? Well the answer is, I don't really know. I mean yeah there has been a few things that have made me a little upset. Mostly stupid reasons but they are there. Like one of my "good" friends decided to go to Sadie Hawkins which is great. But the thing that bothers me is that the past few years we have decided to go to some of the dances, but right as it came about time to start asking people she would back out. The thing that bothers me most though is that when her other friend suggested going to Sadie Hawkins this year she was like oh yeah lets do it blah blah blah. She didn't even ask if I wanted to be in the group, but they added a bunch of other people. And they would sit there during class talking about everything they are going to do and how much they can't wait. This friend and I used to be "best" friends and if you ask her she says we still are. Would a best friend back out on all the plans we made together but jump at the chance to do the same plans with someone else? I don't know it just makes me feel bad.

And lately i feel as if I have no friends. I know that sounds ridiculous but its true. I don't talk to anyone and when I do its like they aren't even interested in the conversation. I feel like the only thing I am good for is driving people around. But what good does that do me when all I am really doing is wasting my gas and spending my money. Gosh and during lunch is the worst because I am just sitting there yes with some "friends" but we don't even talk, it wouldn't be any different if I was sitting by myself. I think what gets to me the most is when I look on facebook and see everyones pictures with all of their friends and see how happy they look.

And then there is the whole boy thing. I don't even know what to say about that. You know, I work at the airport and I see a lot of cute guys my age, most of which work at the airport, but the only ones that come and talk to me are the old guys. Not that there is anything wrong with that but its not like I want to go out with old people. Seriously it feels like no one MY age likes me or even knows I exist. Even worse though is when a cute guy my age does say "hi" I don't know what to say and when I do say something it sounds really stupid. And it doesn't count when family says I am pretty, because they have to say that its not like one of my family members will come up to me and say "hey your ugly" no if they say anything at all they say "um yeah sure your pretty."


Ugh sometimes I truly just feel like screaming, but I don't I just sit around and smile and pretend everything is just PEACHY, which is my new response to everything for those of you who haven't noticed. Anyway I really can't wait till high school is over and I go away to college and meat new people. People who have never met me before, and don't know about all the stupid things I have done such as spilling my drink all over Wendy's (which was really funny, yet embarrassing at the same time). I guess you can say I am just ready to start over.

Then I woke up

I get into the car
Turn the radio up real far
To shut out the noise
So I can hear my voice
There's a party on down the street
But nobody invited me and I got a gig
Babysitting my uncle's kids
Why me, I just wanna see

[Chorus:]
Don't you know that I'm a hip hop queen
A rock and roll dream it's all bling bling
I'm the star on the scene
Yeah, check me out see what I'm all about
I'm the one that you want the one you can't have
The girl that you call who doesn't ever call back
Just look at me I've got everything

But then I woke up
I was lying on the couch
Drool coming out my mouth
Turned on the TV
Dr. Phil won't you please fix me
I'm waiting for the phone to ring
Flipping through a magazine
Why doesn't he call
Guess I'm the loser down the hall
Why me, I just wanna see


(Chorus)


But then I woke up
I'm like living in a dream
It's everything it's supposed to be
It's a holiday from me
It's all just kickin in
And this is where I begin
Just being me
It's okay to be me

But it's gonna to be a a hip hop queen
A rock and roll dream it's all bling bling
Yeah, baby ka-ching
Come check me out
You know I'm bringin down the house
I'm the one that you want you now I'm heaven sent
I'm a little skater boy and a little 50 Cent
Just look at me I've got everything


But then I woke up
(I'm a hip hop queen)
I woke up
(I'm a rock and roll dream)
I woke up, I woke up


Then I woke up
(It's all bling bling)
I woke up
(Yeah, baby ka-ching)
I'm like living in a dream
(I'm like living a dream)
It's everything it's supposed to be





OK so this is a song called THEN I WOKE UP and it is by the clique girlz. This song has been stuck in my head for YEARS!!! ha ha I never even knew who it was by until a few months ago. I think it is a really good song because it so describes me ha ha jk. It reminds me of when I was little and would always say that I was going to grow up and be a singer (or an actress) ha ha oh how things have changed. Now I don't really even know what I want to do with the rest of my life. Yes If you were to ask me what I plan on doing I would tell you what I have told everyone else... I am going to go to collage and major in English, then after collage I will become a flight attendant and then once I am ready to settle down I will become a teacher and then during summers I will work as a dental assistant..... That is what I "plan" on doing... But I don't know if I really want to do that. I am kinda worried that I am going to be stuck doing something and wishing I could do something else (and I am also afraid that maybe I will bite off more then I can chew). I am now a Sr. in High School so there really isn't much more time for me to decide what I want to do... Ahhhhhhh time is going by way to fast!!!!!

But don't get me wrong I am excited/nervous to be a Sr........ Man I hope this school year is good... The last two years of school have been pretty good, no drama, and classes have been getting easier (well some harder). But I am hoping that this year will be the best, I want to go out with a bang ha ha

Commercial

OK so this is a commercial I did for my financial literacy class. Its about a product I made up called B.O.P. Watch it then tell me what you think about it.... :)

To my sister

I miss her so much.... Its hard to think that its been 13 years without her. I cant help but be jealous of all the memories my family has of her when I have so little. I wish she were here to help with all the hard times. I wish she was here for Amanda and me to grow up with her. I wish that there were more pictures of us three sisters together. Her life will never be forgotten. And every time I look at a rainbow I think of her. Every time I see a pinwheel I say Hi because I know she is close by.

Casey,
roses are red violets are blue,
here is a kiss in the wind from me to you.

My life (video form)

Ok so this is a video I started working on when I was bored and it was really fun... I think I might do more of these, but tell me what you think first.... It is kinda long so you don't have to watch the whole thing but it does get better near the end... So ENJOY

My week

Ok so my week was interesting. I had decided to try out for softball, (knowing that if I didn't make it I would be sad). So on Monday I went to school and was still debating if I should actually tryout or not. Then after school I went home with the thought that I was going to tryout. But at like 4:00 o'clock I got a phone call from the manger at my work saying that I was supposed to be working. But I was absolutely positive that I had it off. So I went into work and looked on the schedule and saw that it said I had it off. And the guy who happened to be working at the time said it was ok with the manger if I went back home. So I called the manger to make sure that there wouldn't be any problems if I left. And she said no and that she was sorry there was a miss understanding (I realise now that this sort of stuff will probably happen a lot in my working career). So I left to go home and traffic was horrible. I didn't get home until about 5:15 and I had to be at tryouts at 5:30 so I rushed to get ready and made it to the school just in time. Tryouts were rough and lasted till 9:00. By the time I got home I was beet. So by the time I went to sleep I just zonked out. I woke up the next morning and was sore to no end. The tryouts on Tuesday were a lot easier except running up and down the stairs for like 3 minutes were killer. Then the tryouts on wednesday were really easy we didn't do much and I was glad. Thursday was the day I found out I didn't make the team. I was disappointed because I really wanted to make it, but honestly I was ok. I guess I wasn't as sad because I had already gone through the heartbreak last year and so I was prepared for it. Anyway so after school a couple friends and I went and saw a movie, it was really good and there is a car in the movie that I really want lol. I am not sure what kind of car it was but I will someday have one just like it. Ok so anyway that is most of my week not very exciting but great all around, what with disappointment and finding a new dream car not much has changed and I guess you can say my week was normal.

Ha Ha... The End

My First Blog

Ok so this is my first blog… I have never had anything with a blog so I don’t really know what to say lol… but I am doing this because I wanted to. Anyway my name is danie I am now 17 and I talk a lot so there might be a lot of blogs on my page not that it matters because no one will read them but I am ok with that. My favorite color used to be green but I have decided that too many people like the color green so now my favorite color is yellow…… why yellow? Mostly because it is a nice color it is very bright and to me represents happiness….. You might be thinking why would I care if everyone likes the color green….. Well I don’t like to be the same as everyone else so I needed something to change and its not like I just up and decided to change my favorite color to yellow it had been coming for a long time….. Yellow used to be my second favorite color so its not like I changed my favorite color from green to one that I used to think very little of…….. Ha ha ok well that is enough about my favorite color….for now anyway…. I am kinda sick of writing right now so I am going to end this… but before I do I just wanted to say that I know that things are spelt wrong and I don’t care…. That is me I spell things wrong and I am ok with that. (although it does bug me when others spell things that are really simple wrong or if they don’t add a letter to the end of a word like r to the word “your” so then they just end up saying something like “isn’t yellow you favorite color?” It gets really annoying but I have just learned to forget about it)….. Ok I am done now so bye……………. Ok I lied I don’t like that I spell things wrong so I went back over this blog to try and fix my mistakes I might have missed some errors but I am truly ok with it…. Ok so I really am done now bye :)