BARBIE

Sometimes I feel...... lost. Sometimes I feel like I am not even here. I just go through the motions of life as if I am some sort of puppet. When I am sitting around, I feel like I'm some sort of character in a movie. I feel like my life isn't real. When I was little and I played with my barbies' I always imagined myself as one of them. I constantly think to myself "I'm just a barbie, doing whatever someone is making me do, this whole thing called 'life' doesn't really exists for me." Sometimes it seems like the person who is controlling my "life" will just one day grow up and not want to play with me anymore. So what will I have then?  I won't even exist anymore, I'd just be an empty shell, brainless, emotionless....lifeless. That thought scares me. Why do I feel like a barbie? Why is it that people grow up and stop playing with the things they love? What if I am some sort of doll that really is just a toy. What if my life is all just pretend?